To the man i loved,i hope you found peace,because its slowly creeping back to me. I have had thoughts,of picking the cell phone, making that call but you were right, it was for the best. Nothing good ever happens from weeping and not acting, i hope you finally learnt to speak,because i do now. I sure hope you treasuring every moment you making now.
Those days that I would just want to scream and let it be known,i hope you have learnt to do so,it helps sometimes.. And oh it do...esn't mean one is weak, just being human. I dance in the mirror, laugh at myself sometimes, my thoughts wild. You know it hit me, I just can't seem to let the thoughts in my head known, they play a game, a game that I only know, a game that whispers "take it" and one that goes "think again". I should probably work on the confidence that screams inside me but refuses to leave my mouth.
It was magical,it was awesome but it it couldn't last. I might have asked for too much,or wished for too much,but that's what i wanted. Is it my ego or an attitude I don't know, I just know I wanted something real, it wasn't fictional,not really maybe just a little bit stubborn. There were those moments that just screamed fuck off,but then there were those that just whispered hold me close and never let go.
There were promises,promises we made....promises that you or me would have wanted to keep but then shit happened, or is it destiny decided, I can't tell.... and now they are just memories of those talks we had. The beach ooh,i can still smell the beach,and i would go scream my anger out,i remember how i would dance my sadness and disappointments away.
And we suddenly became you and me, the pretext changed, the laughter's changed, the phone calls and texting changed. What really happened i should answer this. Something happened,the heart just became so hollow,and darkness was so real, every little irritating thing came back like a hurricane,the mind raced,the heart raced,the world raced.
And then it all stopped....bang!! I slept after 8 hours of crying and accepting me,assuring me and letting me be me. I woke up no longer bitter about myself,i admired the girl in the mirror,she reminded me of someone that loved life and didn't need a crowd to feel wanted. Someone that was all together okay just by having her own company. And a new day just began
.........she made a decision......
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10 April 2018
Anynomous
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.........And the sun rises...... Every so often we get caught up in situations. what we do to get out of them is totally a different thing, i wouldn't really mind taking the short way to solve issues but we all know that the only way to solve problems is the right way. you can't destroy another person so that you are safe...you can never make another person feel inferior just to satisfy your ego. Am not really big on issues..they scare me. I had Rather avoid any situation th...at would make me choose sides than pretend to really know what the solution is. Is that even true? Until recently i would really get involved in people's business, i would always want to feel like i solved the problem but then came somebody who taught me that life isn't about how many people you please but how many really find your presence in their lives worth it. So i got it that for me to be a good friend, girlfriend, sister and daughter I had to weigh every single aspect of the things I did or said. Life brings different kinds of people in life and thats the beauty of it,we are not meant to be perfect because it would be boring and thats why,every single flaw,mistakes and past shapes us into who we want to be and how we relate with others And the beginning is now.
Anynomous
"
To the man i loved,i hope you found peace,because its slowly creeping back to me. I have had thoughts,of picking the cell phone, making that call but you were right, it was for the best. Nothing good ever happens from weeping and not acting, i hope you finally learnt to speak,because i do now. I sure hope you treasuring every moment you making now.
Those days that I would just want to scream and let it be known,i hope you have learnt to do so,it helps sometimes.. And oh it do...esn't mean one is weak, just being human. I dance in the mirror, laugh at myself sometimes, my thoughts wild. You know it hit me, I just can't seem to let the thoughts in my head known, they play a game, a game that I only know, a game that whispers "take it" and one that goes "think again". I should probably work on the confidence that screams inside me but refuses to leave my mouth.
It was magical,it was awesome but it it couldn't last. I might have asked for too much,or wished for too much,but that's what i wanted. Is it my ego or an attitude I don't know, I just know I wanted something real, it wasn't fictional,not really maybe just a little bit stubborn. There were those moments that just screamed fuck off,but then there were those that just whispered hold me close and never let go.
There were promises,promises we made....promises that you or me would have wanted to keep but then shit happened, or is it destiny decided, I can't tell.... and now they are just memories of those talks we had. The beach ooh,i can still smell the beach,and i would go scream my anger out,i remember how i would dance my sadness and disappointments away.
And we suddenly became you and me, the pretext changed, the laughter's changed, the phone calls and texting changed. What really happened i should answer this. Something happened,the heart just became so hollow,and darkness was so real, every little irritating thing came back like a hurricane,the mind raced,the heart raced,the world raced.
And then it all stopped....bang!! I slept after 8 hours of crying and accepting me,assuring me and letting me be me. I woke up no longer bitter about myself,i admired the girl in the mirror,she reminded me of someone that loved life and didn't need a crowd to feel wanted. Someone that was all together okay just by having her own company. And a new day just began
.........she made a decision......
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.........And the sun rises...... Every so often we get caught up in situations. what we do to get out of them is totally a different thing, i wouldn't really mind taking the short way to solve issues but we all know that the only way to solve problems is the right way. you can't destroy another person so that you are safe...you can never make another person feel inferior just to satisfy your ego. Am not really big on issues..they scare me. I had Rather avoid any situation th...at would make me choose sides than pretend to really know what the solution is. Is that even true? Until recently i would really get involved in people's business, i would always want to feel like i solved the problem but then came somebody who taught me that life isn't about how many people you please but how many really find your presence in their lives worth it. So i got it that for me to be a good friend, girlfriend, sister and daughter I had to weigh every single aspect of the things I did or said. Life brings different kinds of people in life and thats the beauty of it,we are not meant to be perfect because it would be boring and thats why,every single flaw,mistakes and past shapes us into who we want to be and how we relate with others And the beginning is now.
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